Four years ago I graduated high school. I don't remember where I sat. I don't remember who I sat next to. I don't remember who talked or what they said. I don't remember what the choir sang. I remember what I wore only because it was awful. I remember who came because they were important. I remember where I was heading.
I feel like so many people can relate. Maybe not to the awful outfit choice.
Here was the life plan:
4 Years at Taylor University with a degree in Graphic Design. Maybe a job.
Here's a lovely little timeline of what actually happened:
Aug '07-May '08: Taylor University
June '08-August '08: Kanakuk
August '08-December '09: Kishwaukee Community College
January '10-May'10: NIU
June '10-August '10: Ducky's, Cornfields, Acquaviva Winery
September '10-December '10: Focus Leadership Institute
January '11-present: NIU
So what's the point of this post? Maybe the fact that most of my good friends just graduated college is getting to me. Maybe I'm exhausted from work today. Exhaustion=vulnerable moments.
Here's what I do know.
I AM OKAY WITH THE FACT THAT I WON'T GRADUATE COLLEGE UNTIL I AM 24 GOING ON 25.
also.
I HAVE HAD WONDERFUL EXPERIENCES THE PAST FOUR YEARS.
also.
JEALOUSY GETS YOU NOWHERE.
also.
GOD HAS A PLAN FOR MY LIFE BIGGER AND BETTER THAN ANYTHING I COULD PUT TOGETHER.
yep.
I guess there's a lot of things I want to do with my life right now. Get better at photography. Get out of debt. Find dates for weddings. Do more art. (oooooh might get to paint a mural at a new local restaurant) More things. I also want to get involved in the prison ministries. I just need a girl who is over 21 to team up with me. Praaaayer.
Okay. That's the end of my ramble. To those of you who actually read this, just keep me in your prayers. Send me messages and I will pray for YOU. :)
the end.
Ah Bri. I remember that feeling too. In different ways I still feel it - everybody does. Just remember and try to keep reminding yourself (as I do) that life is not a race. And God doesn't put you where you are for you to be unhappy, He puts you there for you to be in relationship with Him at its fullest which in turn makes you peaceful. Peace is better than happiness because it can't be destroyed as easily.
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praying for you sweet friend!!!! hang in there. america likes to shove perfect little stories down our throats of how our life "should" go. i'm proud of you for not buying into that lie. God has a plan more magnificent then you could ever imagine!!! just keep doing the next right step - even if you can't see the road map.
ReplyDeleteGod keep "complicating" my story too. I'm convinced again and again that it's Him. I've been asking Him why He's doing the things this way... asking why my life isn't the simple path I dreamed of. He keeps telling me it's because I know Him better because of it. Frustrating, but oh, so good.
ReplyDeleteI'm also so thankful that our stories both got complicated in such a way that we ended up in the same place, at the same time. <3
Good thought, but even better to know you.
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