empty.

I have this struggle right now.

The semester just ended. I suddenly have loads of free time–minus the having a job thing–and I just feel empty.

This past semester has literally been one of the most difficult I've had school wise. My classes were challenging, being a "young designer" was challenging, and the never ending load of homework was challenging.

Towards the end of the semester I just started being consumed by the homework. Consumed. I was skipping Bible study and neglecting things just to finish my homework.  Now I'm at the end of the semester, with only one more ahead of me. And I just feel empty.

In this moment it's as if all this work I'm doing is just for a grade, for a piece of paper, for the credibility.

Colossians 3:23 says, "Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for man."

Am I doing that?

It doesn't feel like it.

I need a perspective change and a heart change. I need rest in the Lord. I need to seek the Joy that only comes from knowing Him.

I'm tired. I'm weary. I'm exhausted. I'm vulnerable. Yet Jesus says this in Matthew 11:28-30 "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."

The Lord will not forsake me. Moses speaks these words to Israel in Deuteronomy 31:6, "Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you."

So many beautiful and amazing promises in Scripture.

Time to stop, and rest.